Thursday, March 27, 2008


I'm in a rut.

I've been letting my glucose averages creep up on my meter.
I've forgotten to treat low blood sugars. Seriously it's possible.
I've had entire days slip by without doing an ounce of school work.
I've unsuccessfully tried to write blog posts about spending the past weekend with my silly cousins and my first ever scary overnight low.
I've been thinking about how bleak my future looks because of my lack of ambition.

I! I! I! Me! Me! Me!
I need to stop whining and wallowing. I need to start doing, if only it were that easy for me.
I'm stuck and I can't figure out how to un-stick myself.


Ashley said...

you need some sunshiney weather. so you can go outside and just exist. it works.

we all get a little loose with our control sometimes. just relax. maybe try meditation?

Colleen said...

It happens to the best of us - you, too, will get back in the groove. Just don't try all of it at once. Pick one thing to work on at a time. I'm guessing once you get the glucose levels in line, the rest will be easier.

k2 said...

Are u we related?? Seriously, I think we share some dna.

Jillian said...

Ashley, I completely agree. I spend way too much time in my house, I think a day out in the sun would be perfect!

Colleen, my problem is choosing which thing is the best to start with. I think my numbers really do play a huge part in my mood and over all outlook on life though.

Kelly, anything is possible.

Scott K. Johnson said...

Maybe it's not all bad taking a little break... ?

Enjoy the relaxation instead of fighting it.

I know, easier said than done.

Donna said...

You'll get through this, Jillian. You're strong & determined. When our sugars are out of whack, it seems to affect everything else. Good luck getting un-stuck! You can do it!

Shannon said...

Do you ever take the same kind of breaks the schools get?

I agree with Ashley. Getting out of the house will do you a world of good.

Naomi said...

Without the ruts, how would we know when we are on level ground? You'll be okay. Wallow good and hard, and then set a time & stop wallowing and move on.

I love wallowing. I even love the word. Walllllloooowwwwwwww.

Okay, time to stop.